#466. How do you know when it’s over? - Maybe when you feel more in love with your memories than with the person standing in front of you. - Gunnar Ardelius
#465. I keep telling myself that I don’t miss you and I don’t love you, hoping one day I’ll believe it.
Haunting lyrics: Cough Syrup - Young The Giant
The first time I’ve heard this song was on my Glee season 3, episode 14, my most favorite, when a gay boy named Dave Karofsky was totally depressed because his so-called friends found out who he was and made fun of that. And he cry his eyes out in his room, put on his best suit and tried to kill himself.
I had never cared about gay people before. Like, I knew that judging them for being born in the wrong shape was wrong, I never did that. But I never cared about any kind of support campaign, it was just that I had something else to care about.
Glee really does influence me to look at gay people with eyes opened wide. Beside, they make me feel understood because I’m like another version of Finn who was so lost after high school and the only thing people do when they see me is asking me what I’m going to do with my life, which I’ve been questioning myself all the time. Damn it!
Maybe she will never love you back, but she will always, always, need you. - Sharon Lai.
Haunting songs: Nobody’s Home - Avril Lavigne
I bet we all have songs that always remind us of some period time of our life.
I don’t have many things in my life to be proud of, but compare to what I’ve done, singing in a cover band for a short time was a great time of my life. And it was really amazing singing songs I love, like Avril Lavigne’s My Happy Ending, Nobody’s Home, Maroon 5’s She Will Be Loved, etc.
It was really amazing until I realized people liked watching me performing these songs because they were popular tracks, not because they felt related or so. I figured it out when I recommended The Pretty Reckless’ songs to the band and they told me, “Please, people don’t know this band, choose something they can sing along!”
I got shocked, I thought music was about finding and saving someone’s soul, I didn’t know money was what mattered the most to the band ‘cause they said they were just doing it for the passion. They even told me to cover Lady Gaga’s hits, which was fine, but, damn, it hurt not being accepted.
I left the band, or maybe they let me go without hesitating, and promise to myself if I ever work in the music industry, I’ll be myself first, ‘cause if I keep floating along “the trend”, I may commit suicide.